2011-09-12 21:33:47小探人

在晨光中甦醒

                                                                                
                                                                                                                                 
                                                                                
    回到臺北以後,心還浸在爬山豐富的感受當中。一夜好眠,
                                                                               
在透進窗戶的陽光中醒來。
                                                                               
    每次去到花東、或是去爬山回來,一接近城市,總讓我想起
                                                                               
灰撲撲的大鴿籠,渾濁而枯燥,心裡產生了更多的反感與煩躁。
                                                                               
所幸這次回來卻沒有這種感覺了。如果每一次上山,帶來的卻是
                                                                               
對人間世更多的不耐與更褊狹的意念,那麼真是辜負山林也辜負
                                                                               
海洋了。
                                                                               
    我希望山的旋律能常常在我心中流動,記得那些山上的美,
                                                                               
也記得爬山過地形時的疲累與恐懼。說起來,爬山過程中,辛苦
                                                                               
的時間遠多過於享受的時間。幾個小時的山路、簡單的糧食、大
                                                                               
背包在肩上勒出淤青,陰晴不定的天氣,出了太陽就要晒傷,下
                                                                               
了雨也只能在泥濘中咬牙前進。傍晚風一吹,滿山滿谷都冷冽了
                                                                               
起來,一不小心頭就痛了。在前進時,大多沒有餘裕欣賞風景,
                                                                               
大約是實力還不夠的原因。然而我深深著迷於,每一次累了一天
                                                                               
精疲力竭後,整個人不論是身體和心靈都好像無法再承受任何事
                                                                               
物(但實際上就算再多兩個小時路還是會撐過去,這是高中在儀
                                                                               
隊練出來的延展性)時,那置身於浩渺的雲霧中,在柔軟的青草
                                                                               
地上,看著黃昏,等待月起,聽山風在耳邊呢喃……用雙腳走進
                                                                               
風景,那時我不再是個旁觀的欣賞者,也不再是個文明的侵略者
                                                                               
,卻是真正與大地一同呼吸了。
                                                                               
  這是我與山的旋律。我也願我的生命中,即使常在人境,要
                                                                               
踩過許許多多艱難的地形,要走過許許多多的焦灼難耐的路,仍
                                                                               
然能記得,與大地一同呼吸、一起脈動,在每一個步履當中留心
                                                                               
小小的驚喜或大大的感動,也許這就是山林真正教會我的東西。
                                                                               
走在林中,我常喜歡欣賞各式各樣的小草蕨,山上的環境想必是
                                                                               
充滿考驗的,風霜與日晒,走獸與人跡。但她們仍捲舒著細緻的
                                                                               
小小葉片,活得如此認真而深刻,不是為了證明什麼、也不是為
                                                                               
了什麼偉大的理想在奮鬥,而是生命的本質就是如此堅韌美麗。
                                                                               
  松蘿湖之行已留在昨天了。今天我在城市的陽光中醒來,也
                                                                               
許深吸一口氣,心中飽和著滌清的意緒,又足以怡然地渡過每一
                                                                               
個忙碌的日子。

 


                              

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