2004-09-01 20:13:32Tempsfuit
1st of September
Ah, it's Sept already!
so soon isn't it..
this past month my life has been such a roller coster, there were ups and downs and at times i just felt like cracking up. thank goodness all these are passed now, except i know more are coming.
life is seriously stressing, i'm not coping very well, still wondering why i'm alive. but have to say a few fair words, it wasn't THAT bad this month, afterall everything got sorted out pretty well, there were friendships i didn't expect which surprised me; more things i discovered about myself (yes you guessed it, bad things); nothing has gone well out of handed so i managed to stay cool and didn't make a fool of myself; lastly i suppose everyone at my age is stressing out and my problems doesn't seem so macro comparing to theirs. so i guess that's the pain and pleasure of growing up. (glad we only have to do it once)
love can make people such a fool. i remember my friend, she used to like this guy and from then she started to do absurd things that we all think is 'stupid and unbelievable'. for example, she used to collect his hand writings; she carefully puts paper/slips/scraps - anything that contains his handwriting - in a plasic bag, and reads over each and everyone of them, even though there's practically nothing in it. and she gets exited when he writes his name, she reads over and over again and tells us how pretty his handwriting is...we were all thinking she's gone nuts.
however when we fall in love, we start to behave perculiarly too. =.=||
for example, my other friend who fell in love just recently, she wants to touch everything he touched, even if it's merely a plastic bag he used to put his assignment in. 'it feels intimate' she claims, which nearly made me faint right on the spot. i do stupid things when i fall in love too...better not list any :P
the point is, love makes people a fool, but we all desire to be one. because it's soooo worth it.
wow have written so much, very rare of me, but anyway, i'm feeling refreshing now i've got them out of my chest.
wish for september...more endurance, more happiness, more control of my life...and bad devil keep away!!!!! amen.
so soon isn't it..
this past month my life has been such a roller coster, there were ups and downs and at times i just felt like cracking up. thank goodness all these are passed now, except i know more are coming.
life is seriously stressing, i'm not coping very well, still wondering why i'm alive. but have to say a few fair words, it wasn't THAT bad this month, afterall everything got sorted out pretty well, there were friendships i didn't expect which surprised me; more things i discovered about myself (yes you guessed it, bad things); nothing has gone well out of handed so i managed to stay cool and didn't make a fool of myself; lastly i suppose everyone at my age is stressing out and my problems doesn't seem so macro comparing to theirs. so i guess that's the pain and pleasure of growing up. (glad we only have to do it once)
love can make people such a fool. i remember my friend, she used to like this guy and from then she started to do absurd things that we all think is 'stupid and unbelievable'. for example, she used to collect his hand writings; she carefully puts paper/slips/scraps - anything that contains his handwriting - in a plasic bag, and reads over each and everyone of them, even though there's practically nothing in it. and she gets exited when he writes his name, she reads over and over again and tells us how pretty his handwriting is...we were all thinking she's gone nuts.
however when we fall in love, we start to behave perculiarly too. =.=||
for example, my other friend who fell in love just recently, she wants to touch everything he touched, even if it's merely a plastic bag he used to put his assignment in. 'it feels intimate' she claims, which nearly made me faint right on the spot. i do stupid things when i fall in love too...better not list any :P
the point is, love makes people a fool, but we all desire to be one. because it's soooo worth it.
wow have written so much, very rare of me, but anyway, i'm feeling refreshing now i've got them out of my chest.
wish for september...more endurance, more happiness, more control of my life...and bad devil keep away!!!!! amen.