to mother:
You give my feeling entire very eccentric, the younger sister birthday you can help her to celebrate, but I! ? You know, I longed for has your care younger sister to be more than quite several hundred times!
Why do I always obtain? In brief, I felt extremely loathes! You as soon as speak frankly the father quite to be sore I, the father cannot like you to be same, only can loathe to me, repugnant! Although I very can talk back with you, the institutional records of a reign I am onlysensible, I always thought I also must come sensibly compared to them!
I fall ill can care about I had calculated, only can say I ditch school! My mood not very can understand I calculated! Only can say my spleen refraction! These years cause me to go to the school to have often to counsel the room, frequently meet own to hide cry! All these,all are because of you

昨天【since 23th,September,2006*】
我去了三軍總醫院

測著我的耳朵，快聾了嗎?
看著我的體檢表，傷心
左耳右耳插有一仗里遠

醫生向我媽訴說著，看見媽媽的表情　
哭了　我也跟著哭

我問著媽媽說：【為什麼哭？發生麼事情】
媽媽說：【你現再才拾多餘歲，就這樣子，好捨不得】

我也不想要這樣----*

這時 也才想到一件事情，為什麼媽咪要為我哭? 常常反應似乎討厭我

這時為什麼如此對我?

我似有點感動有絕得自己是否不懂事
最近的我,好煩

為了身體，都快顧不了學業
感情似乎也經營的不怎樣
工作對我來說也很重要
可是怎麼都過的不好

　我該怎麼辦才是對的

我很懊惱　也很難堪
我到底哪裡出錯