2005-06-12 04:41:20藍雨
crap
its 4.30am. its getting really late. mum would be up and barking at me if she sees me~ i hate to think about that though...
i really should be off to bed. NOt that i can't, i just didn't want to. there's lotsa stuff in my head, i need to get rid of them. Im NOT going to shed a tear for her, not a single drop. Matter of fact, i didn't. That's nothing to be proud of though. I was just plain blind. Blinded by love of cos. Im sick of talking about it here again. Not in english at least.
Am I going to believe in love again? yeah...im going to pick myself up and start from where i fell. Im just such a sucker of love. it didnt seem to exist no more...No, that's not going to be. I deserve better.
Everyday I wake up from pain. The moment i open my eyes, i feel the pain. its strange how feelings are...i begin to understand why people have to kill themselves. im afraid of not falling to sleep soon enough, because as soon as there's nothing in my mind, i feel the pain. i like it best when i fell asleep.its strange how feelings are.
i really should be off to bed. NOt that i can't, i just didn't want to. there's lotsa stuff in my head, i need to get rid of them. Im NOT going to shed a tear for her, not a single drop. Matter of fact, i didn't. That's nothing to be proud of though. I was just plain blind. Blinded by love of cos. Im sick of talking about it here again. Not in english at least.
Am I going to believe in love again? yeah...im going to pick myself up and start from where i fell. Im just such a sucker of love. it didnt seem to exist no more...No, that's not going to be. I deserve better.
Everyday I wake up from pain. The moment i open my eyes, i feel the pain. its strange how feelings are...i begin to understand why people have to kill themselves. im afraid of not falling to sleep soon enough, because as soon as there's nothing in my mind, i feel the pain. i like it best when i fell asleep.its strange how feelings are.