I’m cutting my convolute and reluctant to let go of my emotions, every moment.

Seems I was always swinging hesitantly between the desirable and reality.

How do we live thoroughgoing for ourselves without any guilt, misgiving or sorry for the conscience about families, friends or the judgments from people who’re really meaningful and momentous for us?

Most of my friends said that I was just worried too much and think too anxious about the standards or notions from others’.

For example, what’s the suitable boundary of consideration between concern and disturbance?

The notions or we can call it the values decide one’s behavior toward others; including how to express themselves, to connect with people and to show their respect for others.

All of those communications manifest from one to the others will influence the interaction between people.

That’s why there’re some feelings like curiousness, wonder, confusion, doubt, mistrust, upset … and so on to fetter and to shackle our mind, spirit or some say it as a soul.

Try to look the positive part of things wasn’t just a kind of idea to say; it’s a part of our humanity which we’d already blended into our daily actions.

No matter you think you’re an optimist or a pessimist; no matter it’s on your consciousness, sub-consciousness or unconsciousness.

It’s just the way we live for thousands and thousands years.

Then, how about the people who killed themselves?

You could say it’s a negative act; but, if we try to find out any active part of it; maybe, it can be interpreted as a kind of fight for life or being existed.

Although, most people would like to comprehend it as runaway from something you don’t like or escape from the pressures in life.

How much resistance do we need to against the stresses?

I believe the answers were different for everyone living in unlike circumstances.

I don’t agree that I like to suffer from depression; I was just wanted to be honest to everyone including myself.

As we all know that truth might be the cruelest, ugliest and hardhearted thing in this real world; thus, to be honest might be the only cure which could light up the dark side of truth.

I’m finding, trying to figure out the logical positive of life, by facing everyone and everything truly and honestly.

Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers but to be fearless in facing them.

Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain but for the heart to conquer it.

Let me not look for allies in life’s battlefield but to my own strength.

Let me not crave in anxious fear to be saved but hope for the patience to win my freedom.

Great me that I may not be a coward, feeling your mercy in my success alone; but let me find the grasp of your hand in my failure.

… Excerpt from ﹝Fruit Gathering﹞… Rabindranath Tagore

I thought it was over, baby
We said our goodbyes
But I can't go a day without your face
Goin' through my mind

In fact, not a single minute
Passes without you in it
Your voice, your touch, memories of your love
Are with me all of the time

Let me let go, baby
Let me let go
If this is for the best
Why are you still in my heart
Are you still in my soul
Let me let go

I talked to you the other day
Looks like you make your escape
You put us behind, no matter how I try
I can't do the same

Let me let go, baby
Let me let go
It just isn't right
I've been two thousand miles
Down a dead-end road

Let me let go, darlin', won't you
I just gotta know, yeah
If this is for the best
Why are you still in my heart
Are you still in my soul
Let me let go

The lights of this strange city are shinin'
But they don't hold no fascination for me
I try to find the bright side, baby
But everywhere I look
Everywhere I turn
You're all I see

Let me, let me let go, baby, won't you
Let me let go
It just isn't right
I've been two thousand miles
Down a dead-end road

Oh, let me let go, darlin', won't you
I just gotta know
If this is for the best
Why are you still in my heart
Yeah, you're still in my soul, let me let go
Let me let go, let me let go

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