2004-05-15 03:08:00Lillian
Andre22 - Addicted
I am still trying to figure out why I am so retarded. After all that, I still couldn’t take my heart back from him. We still talked almost everyday while we did not discuss about the status of our relationship at all. I thought that we would be over after he saw me crazy, but he did not say anything about it. He did not act anything different from before. He still talked about “our future”and “our family.”I had no idea whether he was serious or just flirting, and I was kinda scarred too so I never seriously talked about it with him. I was so confused with our relationship status. Since we did not make a closure, I took it that we were still together while our relationship was pending. The funny thing is, although I tried to resist the beautiful dream he gave me, I soon dropped my caution again. I hate it! My memory is very bad that my history, geography, and other “subjects of memorization”were always miserable. But, I shouldn’t be so forgetful to forget my caution!!!
He successfully convinced me to transfer to another school near him. My parents agreed that I should transfer because my school was too slack about everything and they were narrow-minded. I applied for transfer, and it went well. Soon it was the winter break. I came back to Taiwan and stayed for only 1 week with my family. Then I returned to America and spent the rest of time with Andre.
“Catching monkeys”(抓猴) is addicting. When I was at his house, I wanted to know whether he changed at all. He told me that he threw everything away, and I really didn’t find those “evidences” again at the old locations. Somehow I got a feeling that he did not throw them away but hiding them somewhere. I was right. He locked them in a suitcase. I have never learned how to open locks, but that day I was just so lucky to open the suitcase with a nailclip. All his love letters, scripts, women’s profiles… They were all in there. But I did not feel hurt this time. When I saw that, I only thought, “I knew it…”I also found that he hid some photos of Jenny somewhere else. Maybe he didn’t even remember that the photos were there.
(To be continued...)
He successfully convinced me to transfer to another school near him. My parents agreed that I should transfer because my school was too slack about everything and they were narrow-minded. I applied for transfer, and it went well. Soon it was the winter break. I came back to Taiwan and stayed for only 1 week with my family. Then I returned to America and spent the rest of time with Andre.
“Catching monkeys”(抓猴) is addicting. When I was at his house, I wanted to know whether he changed at all. He told me that he threw everything away, and I really didn’t find those “evidences” again at the old locations. Somehow I got a feeling that he did not throw them away but hiding them somewhere. I was right. He locked them in a suitcase. I have never learned how to open locks, but that day I was just so lucky to open the suitcase with a nailclip. All his love letters, scripts, women’s profiles… They were all in there. But I did not feel hurt this time. When I saw that, I only thought, “I knew it…”I also found that he hid some photos of Jenny somewhere else. Maybe he didn’t even remember that the photos were there.
(To be continued...)