cant sleep today,dont know why.
I was....just finished a phone called by a female friend.She is getting married with a bady..OH MY!Another marriage with baby story.She is at my age and she is gonna have a child as well as a husband.I was shocked.Look at her and then look at me..I have nothing comparing with her.....I GOT NOTHING!I dream of having my own family since I know love.I mean,I want a family while I know what is love about.Sometimes I get lost....sometimes I give up....sometimes I hate love.....sometimes I dont even think of love...Eventually I need it to build up my family.Now I know how important it is for a healthy family but I lost it.I am looking for it........