2004-03-07 09:55:52愛麗絲
As the Snow
It’s snowing…
Always love to see the snow falling…
So pure and beautiful. It doesn’t last long… but people always remember…
@~~~%~~~
It wasn’t too long ago, I saw him. It was my first day there. My 10-minute friends said they know him. He is not very good looking, but I was always searching for him after I saw him. I should’ve known… I would fall for him… a very sweet fall…
@~~~%~~~
As the new year began, I started to know the place. As usual, I lock myself up in my heart, refuse to talk to anyone. But I always know where he is, know where to look for him. For about three months, the most important thing is to see him every single day.
I know that we do have a few classes together. But he seems never notice me around him. Until one day…
@~~~%~~~
I couldn’t believe that we were working together the mid-year project for an organization. That was the time I get to really know him. It was early winter…
For the first time, we talk about ourselves. But it was also the last time we have ever been that close to each other, and understand the situation we have been in. I have his number because we had to get together to prepare for this project. I put his name down in my diary that I haven’t open for a long long time, just hope that I could remember him forever.
He treats me as a friend. So very nice. But deep in my heart, a voice tells me, “You two are not fated to be together.” I knew it’s right. And I will try all I can to change this fate.
@~~~%~~~
Through out the process of completing the project, she started to open her heart and shared her feelings with him. She hopes he could understand, and one day, he could be there for her when she needs him.
But she would never win over the fate. She discovers the fact that he has a girlfriend works in the company he went to make the deal with.
She hates to be the third person of a relationship. She doesn’t want to break up the relationships between people. All she can do now is… give up.
At the time she finally opens up her heart, she needs to give up again. Through our her life time, she is always giving up things… just because, she doesn’t like to fight with other people.
This is it. She tells herself. She is supposed to give up, never open her heart again, never…
@~~~%~~~
don’t give up! That was her friend Christina.
why not??
cuz you might have a chance in the future... Why don’t you ask him for his e-mail address so that you can keep in touch with him? Christina suggested. i know you are moving to CA next year, but won’t急you come back someday??
...
Come on...
we will see? She replied and left.
@~~~%~~~
Her friends told her not to give up, almost everyone who knows about her situation told her the exact same thing. The voice comes again, 戦 told you already, you are not fated to be together! She was fighting herself. She didn’t want to give up at all. But she knows that he likes his girlfriend very much.
how do you know he likes her very much?? She remembered her friend asking her this question. 装you are not him!?
don’t give up! That’s旧what everyone was saying to her.
But she didnt急 know whether or not to give up. It is really hard for her to make a choice.
@~~~%~~~
Why do these things always happen to me? She asked herself. What am I supposed to do now? Wait?? I thought I should give up? but why does everyone say no? Should I or should I not? I really dont急 know what to do?
@~~~%~~~
“I really give up now… I knew that he would never belong to me…” She told the voice that comes from the bottom of her heart.
“Yes, that is the right choice,” the voice replied.
@~~~%~~~
I will open my heart now to other people and have more friends, I will be an optimistic person from now on… and I will try to be as funny as possible… even though I gave up… but I could always have friends… I believe that friends are more important than lovers. I believe that friendship will last longer than love, right?
I thought about it for a really long time… I really don’t have to have a boyfriend, all I need is friendship… as usual…
@~~~%~~~
She found a new job, even though the place is not so far from where she used to work, but she believe that he will never appear in front of her again… because he will not remember her afterwards. She would just be same as the snow, appears for a really short period of time and doesn’t last long…
Snow… is always what she wants to be… the most pure and beautiful thing in the world…
-feb. 2002
Always love to see the snow falling…
So pure and beautiful. It doesn’t last long… but people always remember…
@~~~%~~~
It wasn’t too long ago, I saw him. It was my first day there. My 10-minute friends said they know him. He is not very good looking, but I was always searching for him after I saw him. I should’ve known… I would fall for him… a very sweet fall…
@~~~%~~~
As the new year began, I started to know the place. As usual, I lock myself up in my heart, refuse to talk to anyone. But I always know where he is, know where to look for him. For about three months, the most important thing is to see him every single day.
I know that we do have a few classes together. But he seems never notice me around him. Until one day…
@~~~%~~~
I couldn’t believe that we were working together the mid-year project for an organization. That was the time I get to really know him. It was early winter…
For the first time, we talk about ourselves. But it was also the last time we have ever been that close to each other, and understand the situation we have been in. I have his number because we had to get together to prepare for this project. I put his name down in my diary that I haven’t open for a long long time, just hope that I could remember him forever.
He treats me as a friend. So very nice. But deep in my heart, a voice tells me, “You two are not fated to be together.” I knew it’s right. And I will try all I can to change this fate.
@~~~%~~~
Through out the process of completing the project, she started to open her heart and shared her feelings with him. She hopes he could understand, and one day, he could be there for her when she needs him.
But she would never win over the fate. She discovers the fact that he has a girlfriend works in the company he went to make the deal with.
She hates to be the third person of a relationship. She doesn’t want to break up the relationships between people. All she can do now is… give up.
At the time she finally opens up her heart, she needs to give up again. Through our her life time, she is always giving up things… just because, she doesn’t like to fight with other people.
This is it. She tells herself. She is supposed to give up, never open her heart again, never…
@~~~%~~~
don’t give up! That was her friend Christina.
why not??
cuz you might have a chance in the future... Why don’t you ask him for his e-mail address so that you can keep in touch with him? Christina suggested. i know you are moving to CA next year, but won’t急you come back someday??
...
Come on...
we will see? She replied and left.
@~~~%~~~
Her friends told her not to give up, almost everyone who knows about her situation told her the exact same thing. The voice comes again, 戦 told you already, you are not fated to be together! She was fighting herself. She didn’t want to give up at all. But she knows that he likes his girlfriend very much.
how do you know he likes her very much?? She remembered her friend asking her this question. 装you are not him!?
don’t give up! That’s旧what everyone was saying to her.
But she didnt急 know whether or not to give up. It is really hard for her to make a choice.
@~~~%~~~
Why do these things always happen to me? She asked herself. What am I supposed to do now? Wait?? I thought I should give up? but why does everyone say no? Should I or should I not? I really dont急 know what to do?
@~~~%~~~
“I really give up now… I knew that he would never belong to me…” She told the voice that comes from the bottom of her heart.
“Yes, that is the right choice,” the voice replied.
@~~~%~~~
I will open my heart now to other people and have more friends, I will be an optimistic person from now on… and I will try to be as funny as possible… even though I gave up… but I could always have friends… I believe that friends are more important than lovers. I believe that friendship will last longer than love, right?
I thought about it for a really long time… I really don’t have to have a boyfriend, all I need is friendship… as usual…
@~~~%~~~
She found a new job, even though the place is not so far from where she used to work, but she believe that he will never appear in front of her again… because he will not remember her afterwards. She would just be same as the snow, appears for a really short period of time and doesn’t last long…
Snow… is always what she wants to be… the most pure and beautiful thing in the world…
-feb. 2002
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