I feel like I had ruined my life.

I feel that there is no meaning of my life.

Why should I keep fighting for my life if my life is meaningless...?

I feel tears in my eyes.

I feel tears in my heart.

I feel tears in my soul.

I do not like myself at all.

'It is ok. U r good at pretending.' I told  myself.

Pretending that I can live wiv that.

Mayday, Mayday!

Mayday, Mayday!

Mayday, Mayday...

My friend had the following comment after I told her my unusual experience last night when we had brunch together today.

She said,

'You r too bored now and it makes your mental status get mad.'

Dear, u r so right bt so wrong in the same time.

I am going to crazy. Bt not b'cuz I am too bored.

Just b'cuz deep in my mind, I am always mad. 

I can gradually see there is another girl stands beside me day by day.