Because nobody go to the Books City with me,I invited the handsome boy who lives upstair.But my mom said that he is a boy so I cannot go with him because if I do that,others would misunderstand the relation between he and me.

I feel upset.I don’t understand why.Because the difference of"he is a boy,I am a girl"?The friendship didn’t clean&clear??

Oh,I feel really back.I invited him but I have to cancel it,I feel I am a bad person who cannot keep words.

All these thanks to my mom!She even said that I can go with my ugly cousin!I just want to dead if I go to the public place with him!!!

Shit.

I want to be grown-up.

I want you come to me,my dear Keita.

Why I must be listen to my parents?

Why I cannot have the mind I can decide??

Why I cannot have my own freedom?

I don’t know how to do it.I just want sb. go with me,but why I can’t.

Kei,I feel really bad.

I want to cry for my young-age,I want to cry for why you don’t come to me.

sayolala.