How happy is the blameless Vestal’s lot!
The world forgetting, by the world forgot:
Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!
Each prayer accepted, and each wish resigned

/ Alexander Pope






人之初始，沒有記憶，沒有包袱，純真的心靈裡總是閃耀著永恆的陽光。這是一篇無關電影的隨手日記。



人的情感是很複雜的。我之所以成為現在當下此刻的我，是由過去無數片刻拼湊而成的，擦掉了哪一塊，此刻的你就變成了不完整；但是少了這一塊記憶的你走到下一個時間點，又成了新的你。



忘情診所裡多的是抱著記憶盒子來的無助患者，患的是失心症，想要遺忘，想要徹底遺忘，回到沒有你的那個時間點，重新來過。擦掉的不只是有你在的記憶，你生命的一部分，不管或大或小，也跟著消失，沒有線索，沒有痕跡。



當兩人陷入熱戀，他們巴不得把自己貼滿另一半生命的每一個部分。擠在浴室鏡子前比賽誰刷牙刷得久，早餐飄著溫暖茶香的廚房裡，九點十五分的goodbye kiss，噁心卻不厭煩的甜蜜簡訊，滿臉泡泡的浴缸裡，發燙輕顫的悱惻纏綿，夜半看著身旁熟睡的側臉，還能感覺手心的溫度。你在哪裡，我就在那裡。彷彿生命從來就如此美好，彷彿誰都不會離開。



不喜歡被遺忘，不甘於只是你其中的一個過去，所以我習慣不停地給予，相片卡子親吻隻字片語，每個時刻都是獨特的之於我的都該是難以磨滅的特別且美好。即使在你的生命裡，有我的記憶就這麼一丁點，我也要這些記憶都載負著強大的情感磁場，你會記得我，永遠記得我。



I think of you while I saw this film for the first time in Taiwan. You’ve spent a whole fucking long years with her here in London and 30 other countries for holidays. You kept everything you could to make sure none a little sweet moment would be forgotten or slipped away fading with time. You dared to stay here still, with all the surroundings so dear and familiar to you. You chose to take the bitterness of locking yourself in the universe that you once had with her, although she wasn’t there. But now you are free from all these bitterness and you will probably have another 11 years here, while I will be away somewhere, on this planet, in my thirty something year, thinking of once I had you in London, in my 26-year-old life, in the shiny bright Notting Hill. I will be grateful that I only had such a short time with you, or otherwise I will have to go to the Lacuna Clinic, burning all these memories off, and having a fresh, sad and incomplete start of life.



For those lovely time together.




Official Website of the movie: http://www.eternalsunshine.com
Screenplay: http://sfy.iv.ru/sfy.html?script=spotless_mind


* This film is great, go check it out.