Honestly speaking,

My recent life has been totally a MESS. A REAL MESS

I have been reading so many books on IQ or like the aim of the life
or how to have a positive outlook on life

I think I know the synopsis and the essence.

However, I am still a human being

At the age of 30, I just work and work every day

alawys keep a positive outlook on life which I think I am only

hypnotizing myself into carrying on the daily life and trying to smile

I am really tired of this kind of life.

Feeling a little suffocated

As for the love I have been looking for,

those kinds of repeated stuff keep treading on my life only with

possibly fake ephemeral happiness....

Life keeps on and on like this way.........

I wanna shout out I have no idea what I am doing and I am only

breathing and breathing ,working hard and hard....

a little bit wondering in the streets like an idiot