So, so far I don't find any real life for I wanted ideal life.

I still can't get real happy and fulfillment...

I only feel alone and lonely...

Sometimes, I also don't understand why I'm  going to the Kingdom hall of Jehovah Witnesses...

Because, I don't get real happy and fulfillment...My heart also don't have feel true happiness...

I just go there make me feel don't have alone and lonely...but It was just one day...

So, I don't know I go to there significance...

More time, I just feel more emptiness...

I don't know...so I often rely games 、 movies and some time-consuming things to spend my emptiness time ...

I know this way not good way, but I would rather own a person, don't want to get along with the bad behavior of people.

Just like bible's say: The bad interaction destruction beneficial habits.

Like the university's part humans for my now life...

So, this is why I will go to the kingdom hall's reason.