Am I too obsessed by certain meaningless thing? It’s difficult to tell. Sometimes I even doubted my purpose. Spending so much time on reasoning out all these clues will do nothing good to me. Nobody will feel happy even if the truth is revealed; neither will I feel happy about this. Life has been difficult enough for me now. Why bother to get involved in all these messy situations. It’s not worthy at all. If this is only for justice, I ain’t a warrior to fight for everything. The reality is that there is no rightness at all. People do things only for their own good. Who cares about others? Friends can even betray you at times when one’s advantage is in danger. What for should I adhere to so-called “Integrity”? People who did things wrong can still have happy lives. People who are always good to others can only become pathetic fools being cheated and used. I started to doubt the purpose for us to be a good person. Since there is no fairness at all, why not just cheat?

Sorry about all these negative thoughts. I need some time to regain my faith though.

Image:
Gino Severini. (Italian, 1883-1966). Armored Train in Action. 1915. Charcoal on paper, 22 1/2 x 18 3/4” (56.9 x 47.5 cm). Benjamin Scharps and David Scharps Fund. © 2006 Gino Severini / Artists Rights Society (ARS), New York / ADAGP, Paris