A month later we are moving to another state, a place you’ve been so attracted to. I’ve never been to that state but it sounds like a paradise based on your description. I understand I gotta make a choice between my beloved family and our new life in that paradise. Once you decided to be in a relationship, there is no more my opinion but our decision. My dear, you know I will support your decision no matter what but on the other hand, I felt a little disappointed about this outcome. The night we made up our mind, I couldn’t tell my parents about our decision cuz I knew I might cry in the phone. I talked to my sister online, chatting about anything but our future plan. I was in bad mood. Last time when I saw my parents, they looked older then the time we left. It was only half year since our departure and time had changed something. I am afraid this time we are going to stay here for another year. How will they look like when the time I am home?

When you asked me why I was eager to go home, I didn’t give you an answer. Now I am going to let you know. It’s not because I am not independent enough. Remember you always told me that there is gonna be a day when we have to say goodbye to the ones we love. Everybody has their own times and this is why I am so eager to go home. Last time we saw an old lady looked alike your grandma. This reminded me her and others in our family. How many times we have to be with them before the day has come? Compare to the possible successful life here in US, I would rather choose my family. Being with them means much more than this success. I hope you understand. For you I will be strong and supportive. In the phone, my mom said she is gonna send us some snacks and candy for the coming Chinese New Year. She said if I miss her, I can just call her and she will sing to me. How can I say? Even though we are far apart, I know our hearts are attached together. I love you and everyone in our families. They mean so much to me.

Life here in New York is going to be in my memory forever. When it’s time to say goodbye, I sort of feel attached to this city though I hated this place so much at first. Goodbye, the unbelievable dirty streets downtown, the oldest subway I’ve ever seen, indifferent people living in town, people I met here, our small apartment, and my graduate life here uptown. Goodbye, New York City.