What is the purpose to learn?

Recently, I’ve been questioning my purpose to attend a master school. I learn simply because I want to learn or it should be learning for future career, to have a better life. This can never be an easy question to me. Will I surely to have a better life after getting a master degree? Back to the bottom line, what kind of life do I see as a better one?

I know I am not a person who is ambitious; on the other hand, I would rather say I am a mild person who only cares about how to maintain a good relationship with others. I dare not to reveal my true feelings. When confronting conflicts with others, I always dodge, trying to escape from the hard time instead of facing the problem. Now I dodged again, I refused to defend for myself again. I yielded with no hesitation. Deep in my mind, I know I have my own thoughts and I know I’ve already found the answer but how can I tell my own idea since it has always been up to you. My life has always been decided by someone else and I know I will keep living in others’ will for the rest of my life. I’ve always been a good child, a good student, a good friend, and even a good wife but I’ve never been good to myself. If life can be started all over again, will there be other choices for me?

Though I’ve complaint a lot, I still felt grateful to have this life. There are so many “thank yous” I wanna say. Without you, there is no whom I am. I gotta say thank you for loving me and I love you guys, too.

For the very beginning question, I still hope I can be a person who learns simply because I want to.

I probably need some kick backs before moving on.