So many things have happened recently. I felt so frustrated and depressed. Lying on bed, I kept thinking, trying to figure out why. If you were me, the one who is always to be blamed, what would you do? I really need someone’s support, giving me strength to overcome all the difficulties. Still, I am not strong enough to be honest to everyone. Always being afraid of telling the truth, I could never be myself, living with my own identity. I’ve tried so hard to make you guys pleased but has anyone of you ever thought of how I feel and what I want? Being so unprepared. What will it be in the future? Who can give me the answer? I am not okay with all these shits. Why should I compromise? How come it’s so hard to live my own life? Folding my hands in silent prayer, will I find eternal peace? Maybe I will but so what!!