I don't know what i am doing now. Actually I don't know what I am or who I am. I feel like I have been down. Even though I went on a trip and had couple of friends keeping me company and celebrating holiday, I still feel that I am so lost. When it comes to make decision or wait for a decision, it is killing me. There is nothing to motivate me now. I was planning to retake GMAT, but I odn't know what's wrong with me. I cna't even stick on my plan for a day. The plan was just on for a night. How pity it is. My plan can't survive through the night. I always get scared before I sleep then I will come up lots of plans. But, those plans will disappear the next day. I feel that I am really a worst person in the world. Sometimes I really feel lonely. I wanna talk but I can't find a person to listen to me. It doesn't mean that I don't have friends but not everybody can really listens to someone's complaints and problems. I can't find someone who can be the one to tolerate me and dosen't feel annoyed by me. It is so hard to find someone to talk. I wanna yell!!


6/12/05 @ New York