In the bleakness I seek solace in the thoughts of you
In my hopeless days and nights, I think of how my heart sores with the image is your face, your smile and your lips
Oh those beautiful lips and dark, sentimental eyes of yours
They spew your wit, your tenderness, your joy and your sorrow
And how I wish I could have been in your arms, held your face and kissed you
It pains me that I miss you this much
And it pains me that I can’t be with you
For I’m an engaged woman, I’m to be married, and I have someone I love deeply, like a family

Can one fall in love with more than one person simultaneously? And are these old thoughts just rising out of sadness for the latest news on my inability to produce a biological child?
Or have they never gone away, despite my best efforts, and telling me to do something about it?

What would my life be, if I choose differently?