IF DEPRESSION IS MY ULTIMATE JOURNEY
I can't imagine how my fate would be

Sometimes i lost myself
but i doubt whether it really exists
Sometimes i hate myself
but i still have to live with it

Why? What is it that worries me so much?

What is the purpose of my life?
what is the significance in my life?
Why am i here?
Where am i going?
Where should i be?
Why is it that i feel so empty?
What do i need to fulfill my desire?
What is my desire?
And all these aspirations, all these dreams,
what is it that i the most?
If i want it that bad, why can't i get myself together to achieve it?
What is stopping me?
What is making me so weak and slack?
How do i turn this around?
How do i regain control of me?
How to reborn, renew, reform?

I don't know, can god help me?

THIS IS NOT ME
THIS IS NOT ME
THIS IS NOT ME
THIS IS NOT ME

DEVIL! LEAVE ME ALONE!
LET ME GO!
STOP HAUNTING MEEE!!!!!!

Fuck i hate this life!