Jan. first

the first day i meet you in the chorus

you attracted me

and i like you



Feb 16

the last day i saw you

in the chorus

still remember

you got into the class

then stop your step

then acknowledge me with a big smile


that was last week

and the only day i saw you in that week

heavy snow so the school closed

you were sick, so absent for 3 days ...

that friday i didnt talk to you

we just eyes to eyes many times

i wanted to have lunch with you

i walked out the room and waited

but you didnt appear... dont know why ...


the week before last week

also friday ...

i was sad with no reason

and you asked us about myspace id

and i gave the wrong one ...

fuck ! hate myself, why i acted like that on that day

what the fuck



last week

i got many plans for you

all of them were canceled, coz you werent in school ...

and my confiendence was increased, then i make up my mind to chase you

to say everything i wanted to


but it’s too late ...


everything is too late

everything is gone




yesterday got a bad news

you back to mexico


today got a worse news

YOU WONT BACK ...

when i hear that

i aasured that i didnt make mistake

so i asked you again

then you just said

NO SHE WONT COME BACK ....

fucking freak me out !!!!!!!!!!!


dont know how to act at school

dont know what would i be interested

just know you wont back

wont back to us

ever never ....


i hate myself

i hate why i acted weird before

i hate i have no confidence at that time

i hate why i didnt chase you

i hate that i thought you said you wont back to mexico instead of back to

hate everything i’ve done

hate that fuckin fucking hate that

even didnt said goodbye to you



the dream, i was like hold you

was like saying wont leave you

it was that sweet

but didnt think you’ll leave me one day

but now you left ..


i rided the bus and look outside where you always be

till the bus drive away

i saw a person wear like you

has a black hair just like you

but i couldnt see clearly ...

i was really wanna go out the bus and run to that person

coz i hope that was you ...

i hope i can see you again before you leave


but everything is too late

didnt have a smile after wake up this morning

in the future, either ....

you’re gone

you’re away

but you left the sadness for me .....






i shouldnt love you, but i want to

i just cant turn awat

i shouldnt see you, but i cant move

i cant look away


just so you know this feeling taking control ...