Dearest hcc

What a surprise! You left a message on my guestbook. Thanks for your greeting very much.

I am fine but feel confused sometimes. For example, when I saw the yard leveled off, I was too sad to believe it is true. I asked ‘why’ in my heart again and again but no answer. What I know is always less than what I can’t know.

Although I feel distressed even it is hard to me to bear it sometimes, I will encourage myself to believe some pure, true, unchangeable value just like charity and wisdom. Although I don’t like myself all the time, I can see the world, I can hear voices, I feel, I think, I…so I am, isn’t it?

No matter how we love or dislike it, we cannot stay anything. Maybe we can do is only experience it as attentively as possible.

I learn to accept what I want, what I deny, what I can get, what I can’t get and…if I could, maybe I would know what is ‘Life.’

Take care, miss you so much…

Yours truly, U