不覺不知 2004的最後一個月已經開始離去
十一月在做些什麼呢?

終於開始了西班牙文課
修剪了頭髮 重新打了耳洞
找出了積欠社區林先生已久的老照片 準備要寄給他

幾個好朋友陸續生日 (還包括劉強尼老先生 我們親愛的老師)
阿姨去動了個小手術 爸爸換了車
媽媽的心情壞又好 暫且持平

晃蕩了不少展覽和電影
抽屜裡還有好幾張影展票啣緊我俞發稀少的時光
...我的UCC即溶咖啡 廉價時光

十一月的最後幾天過得有點膠著‧征忡
每天入睡前持續聽著三首新歌
在十幾年前之身影姿態和現實海岸間
練習折返走著
都怪影像和歌詞不和諧地交織著 鉤出了嘈雜的空洞 洩密
(「在世界的中心呼喊愛情」和「我也很想他」到底是有什麼關係呢....)
所以被迫回想
溫習
釐清

所以要用這首歌勉勵自己，十二月裡─

----
That I Would Be Good

that I would be good even if I did nothing
that I would be good even if I got the thumbs down
that I would be good if I got and stayed sick
that I would be good even if I gained ten pounds

that I would be fine even if I went bankrupt
that I would be good if I lost my hair and my youth
that I would be great if I was no longer queen
that I would be grand if I was not all knowing

that I would be loved even when I numb myself
that I would be good even when I am overwhelmed
that I would be loved even when I was fuming
that I would be good even if I was clingy

that I would be good even if I lost sanity
that I would be good
whether with or without you