I have just noticed that i have to be at the edge of something to actually realize how bad & how shabby my situation is....
then the courage is back~
why does the thing always have to be like this? I don’t know..
i guess i just can’t be the Top 1 percent of people...i am always be the No.2 who gets to learn the life lesson every time after putting myself into a quite worse (but not the worst) situation...
well, i guess this is " me " then!!!....Never learns until the bad thing actually happend on me...ha!

sigh...that is kinda sad...isn’t it?
gotta do something to change it now...i don’t want to be like this forever~

Hey, Vivien...... U MUST DO....U MUST CHANGE IT..and that is YOUR GOAL!! ^^