Part 1:

Never have I once dreamed of life what I am now and sometimes life is your choice.   Being with the same man for ten years that is impossible for my past, changing boyfriends was like changing clothes.  When the fashion is gone, he is out too!  Youth for love is always about feeling, passion, and excitement and without it just like black and white movie.  While I was young, I never learned how to maintain long term relationship, just used my own imagination to create my own love world.  Picking a man from his outlook and his educational background, dating a man always wanted to see how romantic he could be.  That was not real life and reality seemed too far for me to believe.  I could say that I was just a bad girl and played for a man’s heart and liked a bitch.  Only I would like to see how they would treat me like a princess, otherwise, they were just my servants.

If you once were liked me, you would know how that feel like.  If you are still liked me, perhaps it is time for you to wake up!   A love relationship is about time and to understand how much you are willing to put in.  The Funny thing about it is that love is not a math, it does not always one add one equal two.   It is not like your bank saving and it is more like your stock market, if you invest right, you can get it back, opposite you lost everything.   Marriage is more complicated than love because it is no longer just an investment and it is also about people are in it.  Your family and your children and your friends are part of this whole package you sign up for.  Life has its up and down, no one could ever know what life will hit them.  Most importantly; if two people are willing to work together as a team, they are able to share and forgive.