2009-02-14 22:11:20赫本迷
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I’m trying to start to read a book. Almost a couple of months, I didn’t open any book to read. For me, that would be a bad sign. The things I do every day, well, do my job, babysit my cat, and watch my Grey’s Anatomy. Yes, as you see, the very important three things in my life right now. That means what? I guess that would be like no dating, no alcohol, no cigarettes, and no condoms, of course. OK, I’m a little bit over reacting. This might be hormone problem and that’s why I hate to be a woman. That’s why I can’t calm down.
The other news is I think I’m losing a friend. Apparently, I am a very cold person. However, I would lose her, sooner or later. It’s just about time. Guess we will not have lunch or dinner every day, we will not go to each other’s room so often, we won’t have so many things to talk, and we just won’t be any close like before. Do you think it would be a problem to me? Because more feels I got is relief. Yes, relief. I am really careful to protect myself, isn’t it? Seriously, I am just like my mother.
The truth is, either I walk in her life or she walks into mine, I don't want any of the two choices. I don’t like the way she tells me, this is how things go. I don’t want to be angry every time during our each conversation. I don’t like she might judge my personal life to other friends. I don’t like the sexual conversation around my life all the time. I don’t like she always uses a nasty way to talk about sex. I thought it’s a kind of private matter.
I tried to tolerant her, and I failed. And now, I think it's time to choose to be honest to myself.