2009-08-08 01:41:49tizi

cambiamento~

You know you changed but how?
You kept thinking and want to get to know yourself better.

You are kind of crazier than other girls; you know that, after these 10 months, you became wilder.
Cause they told you life is too short to blame, you never know what’s going to happen tomorrow, you seen Italians celebrates weekend form Thursday, you’ve seen Icelander party like they won’t have tomorrow, you want to kept the sprit with you, everyday you do your best, do the maximum as you can, you have lunch with A, dinner with B and party with CDE, cause all of them are ether close friend or someone you not sure when will be the next time you can see them. The more people you know, the more you learn what the importance of friends is.

Born in Taiwan, educated in Taiwan, but for new friends you feel you seems like ABC, you used to love America, but since you learn Italian, the Italian culture amazed you so much, the first time in Perugia just beginning, like most other girls in you department, once you lived in Italy, you always wanna go back, as you professor said in the very last day of university, he said now in your blood and your heart, somehow, you just belong Italy, face the truth, he is god damn right, you kept asking yourself 10 months oversea experience really change you so much this time?! Just like you are leaving your lover, you never believe your sixth sense, cause you know, god won’t let you plan your feature so easily, everything you can image or predict, it’ just won’t gonna happen, then one day you open the Polaroid album, you were surprise every two years you passed your birthday in Italy, suddenly you felt so relieve, like Italian they said “destino”, the first time you want to have faith in that.

Your friend told you it’s like a beautiful dream, everything is so nice and amazing in that, and you just don’t want to wake up, though you still in the slow rhythm, you close your eyes, soon you see the little fountain of Perugia, the old house, the cute roommates, or the amazing Arno in Florence, you and your bike, you just don’t care even if you are in the opposite direction of one way road, just like most Italian, the have so many laws and limited, but just no one care, only the fool follow the rules in Italy, you are so agree with that!

Instead of bubble tea, after single meal you eagerly search the nearest coffee shop to get an espresso shot, you felt confused in the night market, nothing can really make you excited, and you miss the simple tomato sauce pasta with tuna. You used to add soy sauce in every dishes but this time in Italy even the tiny 50 c.c soy sauce you still have the very last drops in Florence, you used like other people still trust in long-d relationship, now you think to be happy in the current moment is the first rule. You had no patient, if the traffic light gives you 10 second to cross street you use only 5, now you will wait and use full 30 second to swan to the other side. You were crazy about the creamy sweet frapuuccino now it’ would be lucky if you see it and didn’t vomit, you still remember in 2006 when you got back from Perugia, u swear you will stay in your little island, cause you born here, you want to delicate yourself here, now you just can’t wait to throw yourself out! You were the littlest and happiest daughter in your family, but this time everyone turn themselves to you, you have to be cool and calm, this is the top task of “problem solving”. Your skin were so delicate and white, now you just don’t care, bathing under the sun is one of the happiest thing.

So that’s all?! You kept wondering, and you will find out more~
The most terrified thing is not how much you changed; is will you changed back, that’s not you anymore…

Last, you must remember and let the words beat your heart like the very first time you saw it “life is short, break the rules, love truly, laugh uncontrollably, kiss slowly, forgive quickly and never regret the thing that made you smile~”