i don’t want to leave.
There are a few reasons
and i know one of them is you.

maybe..because last time..when he left, i cried.
maybe..because last time..when he came back,
everything has changed.

我害怕了。

i am scared of the upcoming leave
i am expecting the followed alteration
the alteration i dont really want to know
but what?
i cant do anything
because nothing will change because of me

i will become very over-reacted with this emotionally
and i know i shouldn’t be

a few days ago
a question mark pop up in my mind
it refills my courage
yet what can i do?
you’ve been clear about the decision you make

am i too childish?
i better grow up, hey?
but tell me
what will a grown up do?

就好像..當我再回來的時候..一切就不一樣了

i dont like changing
every time a change means a new assuetude
a change means another chapter of life
every time a change means an end of something
a change means i dont have something anymore
and i have to reminiscence