我很壞
2006/05
那天上完體育課後,
Andy約我在NTU的出口見面,
我一眼就認出他來,
跟照片沒什麼變的是他的年齡,
可是沒想到他比照片上矮,
見了面,打了招呼,
一路上聊了幾句話,
然後他提議找了一家店坐下慢聊。
老實說我不太敢直視他,
因為我會害怕,
他的眼神讓我覺得很不舒服,
(就是那種全身不自在unconfortable的感覺)
大概是我們兩個的年紀看起來差太多,
(Andy is alreay 30 or maybe over 30, I don't really sure)
所以別桌的客人一直用奇怪的眼神看著我們。
我覺得我很壞,
因為跟他聊天的同時,
我一直在想我們什麼時候會say goodbye
我心裡有點慌,有點uneasy
then my mind was thinking of Peter
I really hope that the meeting will get ending soon
so i looked at my watch again and again
even though that was impolite
後來他也覺得我不專心,
於是問我待會是否還有dating
then i cheated him i have a dating later
OK. I admit that 我真得很壞。
跟Andy say goodbye之後
我就急著撥電話給Peter,但他正在上課
so I left the message to him that I wanna see him
he replied me he had a dating with friends, can't accompany me
briefly,we didn"t meet that night and I felt so disappointing...
總是如此,
我想念Peter,但是他好像都不明白。