今天的重頭戲是"火鍋聚", 不過先寫我一早在書店發現的書.

其實去年也有一本, 是由一個叫 Frank Warren和 Post Secret合作的作品.   Post Secret 有一個網站 www.postsecret.com 大家有興趣可以看一看; 他們專門收集"秘密", 你可以用明信片寄到他們公司, 寫什麼都可以, 主要就是你不為人知的秘密, 在網站上留言也可以, 算是一個"發洩情緒"的管道.....

書籍的編排當然很"炫美編", 不過那可都是"寄件人"在明信片上的創意, 因為文筆不夠好, 在此無法細細描繪那一張張的明信片(很多是自製的, 充滿各種難以言喻的風格), 不過我想重點是,從這些文字或畫面中所流露出的Messages: 難堪 / 自大 / 羞恥 / 無厘頭 / 情愛 / 恐懼 還有很多很多的孤獨與寂寞....

 看到最後會發現, 那些所謂的秘密背後,充滿的是更多人類的同質性:

 1.  I hate this town but I'm so afraid to leave.

 2   .....I think secrets are a good thing. It makes a person more mysterious, sexy, and unique. Secrets are fun, liberating; they make people who they are.

 3.I'm a cheerleader; but secretly I deal drugs.

4.I want to have sex with a piano.

 { you feel alone, but you feel like there are a lot more people alone with you..可不是嗎?? 繼續看下去}

 5.(這是讓我覺得最傷心的一篇) My mom puts a star on the calendar for everyday I haven't cut myself.....I don't deserve 5 of these stars....

6.(這是一張模糊的女性側寫照, 用銀灰色膠帶貼住四角在黃底的明信片上)

I FORGIVE THE MAN WHO RAPED ME.

 7.Some days, I don't mind not being able to go back to who I was.

8.(小學畢冊的大頭照, 其中一個小女生被紅筆劃的愛心圈了起來)

I still look at your 3rd grade picture and think what might have happened.....if I hadn't moved 825 miles away.

 9.Sometimes when we think we are keeping a secret, that secret is actually keeping us. ---Frank

10.(哈佛校園的明信片,兩道白底黑字貼其上)

It's always been my dream to attend Harvard Law School. Now that I'm here.

I am counting down the days until I can leave.

 11.I desperately want someone to recognize one of my secrets so I can finally stop pretending.

 12.(這個好笑)

 I used to think the Sistine Chapel(西斯汀教堂) was called the 16th Chapel. 

13. I'm starting to realize that all my problems can't be blamed on anything else but myself--only I can make my life what I want it to be and everyday my self-control and self-discipline fuck it up more and more....I miss the days when I thought there was something wrong with me.

14. I am afraid that since my Dad is GAY that I might be too.

 15. Let me tread my own path    don't worry I will be fine

 16. I wish I were addicted to things...so I could blame THEM for why I'm so messed up.

 17. I'm afraid that deep down I am truly unworthy of another person's love.

 18. People don't change...They just findd new way to lie to you...

 19.(在化學元素表上寫著) I wish DEATH upon my chemistry  teacher.

20 (超級Hollywood的劇情)

I once wrote a poem about you on a $1 bill in hopes that one day it will end up in your wallet....

今天跟大家去吃火鍋   了不起  簡直跟在台灣海霸王沒兩樣

我們連醬料都可以像餐廳那樣自己調配喲

 我也拿出從Boston買來的魚丸 / 花枝丸和水餃

我們還可以分葷鍋和素鍋哩

 前會長阿輝下禮拜要回台灣三個星期  做啥??

提親 + 結婚 + 請客  所有程序一次完成.....

 Michael將要去英國開學術研討會

我將要去Hawaii....看來大家都很有事做....

 今天有看到今年剛來的夫妻

大家都趕在30 歲前結婚的樣子??

 還聽到很多好笑的情況

像是第一次跟女方家長見面就是要結婚了

還一次就將人家帶到美國  唸書兼度蜜月

是在路邊買結婚證書請對方家長簽名的.....

 直接飛美國

來Dartmouth 度蜜月 (好怪喲....真不像時下年輕人...對呀,我們這輩的怎麼可能像時下台灣的年輕人呢)

說什麼女方家長一直以"陳先生" 稱呼女婿

在婚宴當天竟還問:"啊陳先生, 你到底是叫什麼名字???"害大家一臉尷尬

 (這樣看來, 會來Dartmouth的人都怪怪的)

 今天這一餐真是吃得很豐盛, 還有一些肉 / 餛飩  /丸子沒有吃完說 ....

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反正已經決定今天不進圖書館了,  所以火鍋之後, 又回到書店看書

女導演 Nora Ephron寫了一本書 < I feel bad about my neck> 正在特價中.....OK,不是因為特價才看的,因為是<西雅圖夜未眠>的導演的文字作品哪.... 

(明天早上要去GYM....不過得先去圖書館搶個位子)

(今天風有夠冷有夠大, 邊走邊罵:"稀狼喲....")

 隔壁桌的兩個女生正練習著我聽不懂的語言 (可能是德文??),八成下禮拜要考試...吵, 可是沒辦法, 位子已經坐滿了....只要用心聽, 四周其實充滿了各種"聲音"…應該讓聽覺無限擴大

 (阿輝和Michael也認識Matt,  Matt 的女朋友也在實驗室工作…阿輝說Matt說我是一個很酷的同學…..[很酷?? 很冷漠?? ])

 真希望我的眼睛能看到其它人正在讀什麼….不是封面而是內容

 (還是今天傍晚就去GYM??....今天去好了)

我喜歡這書的書頁邊緣....常常發現這裡有不少書都有固意裁切不齊的書頁邊緣, 還見得到"鋸齒" 狀的裁切邊, 觸感極好....幾乎讓我想起小時候睡覺時一定要抱的那條小棉被....by the way, 我管叫這條小被子"小黃".....

 (But as I said, this is not a story about money. This is a story about love.)

 (What failure of imagination had caused me to forget that life was full of other possibilities, including the possibility that eventually I would fall in love again?)

傍晚去了GYM, 正如所料, "客滿".....大概正好是星期六的關係....東找找西找找, 每台跑步機上都有人...最後只好去用那我最不會的"滑步機"....真是盛況空前哪, 怎麼 Dartmouth的學生都這麼有精神, 這麼愛健身呢?? 隨著大廳廣播的<Last Christmas> 的樂聲, 和這麼多人一起在各種機器上跑步 / 滑步享受律動的機會, 這輩子應該很難再遇到了吧??