GOD!!!!!!!!
How stupid I am!!
I've just deleted the original of this diary!!!
.......... wanna cry... (T_T)

anyway....
I am just going to say what I wrote from my muji diary...''

hum...
bascially Joe was in my imagination all morning...
coz he didn't text me back since yesterday he said he will win for me...
dunno why stupid thoughts just came out from my brain...
such as.. he won, and he was so happy, so he died...
or he lost.. so he didn't want to talk to me...
um... it just some sillt stupid thoughts came out...
and i was so scared.... so scared... and so worried.......

got my science test back today... 69%....
ok la... not too bad... quite happy coz i bit savita and Janice...~ =P

anyway... lunch time me and Katrina both gone mad...
can't reli remember what we did...
we just did loads of silly things and laugh in the bootroom...
I texted Joe at lunch time..
didn't get the report back straight away..
I thought he was dead...=P hahhaha...
how stupid i am...

then hockey.. interhouse ar!! so wanna cry!!
I supposed to be the reserve ga ma...
but yao have to play wor... ai...... >_<
so cold and we lost!!!!!!!!
for god's sake...
don't c the point to play hockey anymore!
we are going to lose anyway...
what's the point!!!!! >_<

finally got Joe's text during prep.....
he said... -->
HOPE YOU ARE FINE DONT WORRY I AM FINE
felt a bit happy when I read it...
then dunno why i just kind of texting him back in a angry tone...
'' so why weren't you texting me back then??? ''
something like that.. can't remember exactly...
then he said....-->
CAN I ASK IF YOU ACTUALLY HAVE SOME FEELING FOR ME
...i felt so funny lor... what's happened to him!?!?!?!?
why did he ask that so suddenly...???
then I pretended I am not smart enough to understand...
so I said... --> ''What do you mean...??''
hahahahha.... I felt so stupid.... =P
He...-->
DO YOU FANCY ME IN ANY WAY
hahahh... I can't help to stop laughing lor...
then I tried to protect myself by saying...
'' Why are u asking that ''..........god........
then he...-->
YOU DONT KNOW ME BUT YOU SEEM TO BE CLOSE TO ME
my first reaction was...--> is that a good thing or a bad thing???
but I said... --> ''SO???''
god... I'm stupid....
but I mean.. if I say I do fancy him... but he doesn't...
what am I am going to do!!!! >_<
i will look so funny...!!
then he went.. -->
JUST ANSWER THE SIMPLE QUESTION
so I said the TRUTH... -->
''I dunno... I'm confused...''
kakkakka~ how stupid that answer is!!!
then I got the last text from him... saying...-->
YOU SEEM TO BE THINKING FOR A WHILE
so.. I said.. ''of coz.. I was doing my prep... -_-'' ''
then he didn't text me back till I wrote this.....
sad.... >_<
after lights out I sent him a text...
''Hey, so are you ignoring my texts just like what you have done to me yesterday?? if so, FINE!! I won't text you anymore!! If no, plz text back!!''
then i went to bed lu...
i get so annoyed...
coz he didn't text me back....
miz him......

19 days till he has his operation......
GOD BLESS HIM...!!