What is defination of Hypocrite? If you know something is right, however your flesh is weak. You keep cross the line to do the wrong things. And in the same time, you act like you are righteous. Maybe it is called hypocrites.

I am hypocrites sometimes. Because I can not change my bad habbits and make it become perfect. I feel that I am not more white. My white dress is with dust. No more beautiful and nice.

However, in the deep of my heart, I hope it can be washed away by Christ. Therefore, when I learned that no perfection of the leader of church, I start to hesitate and wandering what should I do to find my peace.

I keep on blame myself and find no way out. What a poor soul I am! I am only a normal flesh. I am not able to conquer all the tempertation in my life. I am suffering.

Therefore, yesterday, I talked to someone, he said ..hey..consider another churchs, another religions, you may find peace in someway. I start to consider about it. I know plant a seed of this thought is very dangerous. However, I can not help to keep thinking about it. Because, I am only human being. To be like God sometimes seems HYPOCRITES for me. Can you understand?