我很高興現在ㄉ我並不孤單...
因為有孤單陪伴著我...
就像是破繭而出...
我想我是差不多通過這一段參雜回憶 痛苦 和想”回去”ㄉ時期ㄌ...
又回到國中ㄉ那段感覺...
沒有知心ㄉ朋友一樣...

或許ㄅ...
可憐之人必有可惡之處...
我會和這ㄇ多人起衝突甚至不愉快...
應該不是ㄊ們ㄉ錯...
ㄊ們能和別人相處ㄉ這ㄇ好...
但和我相處卻不是很好...
我想結果大概很明顯ㄌㄅ...

我需要一點時間拆下我那ㄍ經常微笑ㄉ臉...
毀掉我那些企圖隱藏”真我”ㄉ動作...或語言...
改掉我總是喜歡亂該玩笑ㄉ習慣...
丟棄我[以嘴邊ㄉ自誇所掩飾ㄉ自卑]...
和善ㄉ...平等ㄉ...對待每一ㄍ我所認識ㄉ朋友...
以及培養合緩平穩ㄉ做事態度...
和深入探討分析研究事理...避免驟下結論...

這些都不是一下子就可以達到ㄉ...
我也不知道要如何”具體ㄉ”列出方法...
這我實在沒辦法掌控...
(不同於一般ㄉ生活...像說我不喜歡ㄊ就可以不喜歡ㄊ一樣...)
可能需要點時間來薰陶ㄅ...

培養點孤獨感...寂寞感...
這是我認為唯一以讓我有”自由發揮”ㄉ空間...
也是我認為唯一可以”遮醜”和”改造自我”ㄉ地方...
就讓我一ㄍ人好好ㄉ靜一靜...沉思我ㄉ過去...再一次改變我ㄉ壞習慣和缺點...

也正好要升高三...
這樣ㄉ”靜一靜”也許也能帶給我不錯ㄉ成績...



Nobody’s Home 艾薇兒
Lyrics:Avril Lavigne Music:Avril Lavigne/Ben Moody

I couldn’t tell you why she felt that way,
She felt it everyday.
And I couldn’t help her,
I just watched her make the same mistakes again.

What’s wrong, what’s wrong now?
Too many, too many problems.
Don’t know where she belongs, where she belongs.

Chorus
She wants to go home,but nobody’s home.
That’s where she lies, broken inside.
No place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Open your eyes and look outside, find the reasons why.
You’ve been rejected, and now you can’t find what you left behind.
Be strong, be strong now.
Too many, too many problems.
Don’t know where she belongs, where she belongs.

Chorus

Her feelings she hides.
Her dreams she can’t find.
She’s losing her mind.
She’s fallen behind.
She can’t find her place.
She’s losing her faith.
She’s fallen from grace.
She’s all over the place.
Yeah,oh

Chorus

She’s lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah
She’s lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah


過去ㄉ種種造就ㄌ如此...
國小ㄉ經驗造就我國中ㄉ生活...
國中ㄉ經驗造就我高中ㄉ生活...
相信高中ㄉ經驗也可以再造就我大學ㄉ生活...
因此...
這樣ㄉ高中生活並不算可悲...
因為我一定可以從中學到什ㄇ...
只是...
就像歌詞描述ㄉ那ㄍ女孩...
我可能就是她ㄅ...
but I won’t make the same mistakes again