西雅圖的秋楓

珊！妳好嗎？我現在還在西雅圖，這邊一切都好，只是冬天到了，整個城市變的灰暗，不過這就是西雅圖，好在今年雨水比較少一點，所以到目前為止，也不會太憂鬱了。

還記得一開始決定要寫網誌想念妳的時候，心裡好多想法，像一瓶混了很多雜質的水，百感交集的，不知道自己該怎麼面對這一切，只好選擇用文字的方式，把想對妳說的話，記錄下來，藉此安慰那個當時一心只想留住什麼的自己，縫補一心覺得怎麼會少了什麼的自己。

現在的自己知道，其實有些不完美才是真正的完美，人無法保有想要的一切，在經過長久的沉澱，然後偶然地在某一個時點了解了這一切之後，覺得自己好多了。那道傷痕，只剩下印記而成為記憶，不再帶著痛了。

 


珊，妳決心在最美麗的年紀離去，而不再成為我們和妳自己未來的日子的一員，我雖然一直不能理解，但我已經可以釋懷，因為我可以感覺的到現在的妳，不管在哪裡，都很開心很快樂，我也替妳感到開心。

今天聽到一首歌，我想要送給妳，也許歌詞寫的是男女感情，而我們只是很好的朋友。但如果有機會在夢裡面相見，I will definitely hold you so close because I know that’s the only place we can meet each other. 我們都會一直愛妳，一直想念妳。

<Daylight>, Maroon 5

Here I am waiting, I'll have to leave soon

Why am I holding on?

We knew this day would come, we knew it all along

How did it come so fast?

This is our last night but it's late

And I'm trying not to sleep

Cause I know, when I wake

I will have to slip away

And when the daylight comes I'll have to go

But tonight I'm gonna hold you so close

Cause in the daylight we'll be on our own

But tonight I need to hold you so close

Ooh-woah, ooh-woah, ooh-woah

Ooh-woah, ooh-woah, ooh-woah

Here I am staring at your perfection

In my arms, so beautiful

The sky is getting bright the stars are burningout

Somebody slow it down

This is way too hard

Cause I know, when the sun comes up

I will leave, this is my last glance

That will soon be memory

I never wanted to stop

Because I don't wanna start all over, start allover

I was afraid of the dark

But now it's all that I want, all that I want, all that I want