The title has no meaning. Just bcuz I’m listing to this song.
Actually, this is my favorite song of evanescence `s new songs. Don’t know why.





This week is a wonderful week.
Last Saturday, I went to Richmond wif family. Shopping!! But…I’ve lost my bag of mp4 in a shopping mall…aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa…my poor mp4.
Monday was Remembrance Day, all the Canadian students didn’t have to go to school. Stayed at home…Hapi! Hapi! Hapi!! And, I’ve done a great great great thing @ that day. Wakakaka…
Tuesday. It was the only normal day in this week. 8:45 went to school, then 3:00 went back home. But!!! I saw my physics paper, it hurt me…
Wednesday. After school, volunteer wif yuko!! That was a senior caring home, 老人院。Night, I went to Alice’s parents meeting as well…Pls wait 4 a minute 4 more details.
Thursday. It was so weird. I was not rly sure if that day was our school’s parents meeting, however, school over @ 12:30, at noon!!! But I like that day’s class most.
Friday. It was a weird day as well. I had totally no idea that y we went to school at 9:45. We usually go to school at 8:45, and that day wasn’t any special day.
Next are the details about each day.


our ELD class has a project: choosing one book to read. But the books are not random. Mr. pare helped us to choose 3 books, and we chose one of them.
I chose , which is written by the author of . And that was my reason to choose this book.
Fuck!!
It was a rly big book!~ totally 700 pages…
At 1st, I thought it’s so hard to read, that I only read about 10 pages every day. But today, bcuz I m the slowest in my group, I have to read more. So I got up at 6:00am today and began to read until midnight.
So tired… however, I’ve finish this super big book!!
700 pages ah…
so proud~


the fucking physics!!
Angry!!
Have to make up my mind, I will get A+ next time!!!


volunteer!!
It’s my second time to work. But, both are not pay-job…
I went wif yuko. School was over at 3:00, the volunteer began at 4:00. we had time, so we went to dairy queen to have a hamburger.
But, we found a problem: we didn’t kno the way.
So we asked a passer-by A. he’s a Chinese too.
Suddenly!!! It rained. I thought I was rain and took out my umbrella. But yuko yelled suddenly and frightened me, “ it’s ice!!”
…ice?
I touched. Ice ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh…!!
They didn’t understand my exciting. For me, who never see the real snow or the ice from sky , it’s rly…I cant describe.
I thought up a FD told me in the morning, it’s gonna snow at the end of November.
Snow!!
Then we reached the caring home.
They were very friendly. The founders are olds as well.
We were gonna help them wif the olds dinners. The standard western foods!! Actually I eat Chinese every day, not as you think that I usually eat the western food. So I felt excited again…
That was Italian noodles, French breads, fruit and vegetables salad, and pumpkin pies.
Delicious!!!
Of course, eating was after working. We first helped them to send the dishes to the olds. Then we did some kitchen work. At last we cleaned the tables. At the last of last, our dinner!!
Although it was volunteer which means we wouldn’t get any money, we thought its rly interesting. We talked wif the olds for a while. They liked us, and they always smiled. Their minds were very clear, and they were interesting.
6:30p.m., we went back home.
Both of us thought we wanna come again. Ha~
It was very dark outside. We almost lost our way…
Yuko had missed her bus. It means she had to wait for almost 45min. so I asked her come to my home and my dad could drive her.
We talked about the history and society of China and Japan. It’s our 1st time to talk about that…she said all the Japanese teenagers know what the Japanese seniors had done for the Chinese seniors…I thought their history books were really changed…
Than my mom asked us to eat another dinner. Yuko was rly polite. She always bow down and said謝謝謝謝…in mandarin. And there were a lot details I have forgotten.
Ps: she is the 1st foreigner to come to my home…
After sending her back home, dad, mom and I went to Alice’s parent meeting.
The parents and the teachers were so funny. They didn’t talk about study but only the activities in their school. They always laughed and played jokes.
Well, it’s my 1st time to join in a parents meeting…
Hoo~ so full today!!


today was rly, rly, rly weird for the native students. But it`s normal and familiar for me.
School started at 8:45 as usual, but was over at 12:30. I guessed it`s bcuz it would be a parents meeting after then. So each class was 45min today. Usually, each class is almost 2 hours…
I liked today!! All the teachers knew how to catch the time today, they didn`t waste any time any teach much faster. The students didn`t ask the stupid questions, everybody just noted and listened carefully and silently.
咁就似番個樣啦…
but!! Fuck…
in the writing class, the guys next to me had lent my earphone of my mp4. nearly the class was over, I went out for a while. When I was back, they turn back my earphone with horror…the fucking guys had cut my earphone wif knife!!
Fk…!!
But they promised they would compensate a new one for me…god knows!!
But luckly, I saw Baker after school. He knew that and he gave me his ipop`s earphone. Su goi ne…
4:00p.m., 補英語. Fuck again…the teacher said I became lazy..
6:00p.m., concet @ willingdon church!!
That was a really big church….well, actually, it`s my 1st time to enter a church.
In the middle of stage, there was a super big cross!!
Cross!!!
I was not a christian, I was not a god-believer, but I still held in reverence. I followd the people, bowed down in front of the cross.
It was a concert of all the burnaby schools. So I guessed I might see some old mates.
…old mates. So weird.
Ya ba ri. When I saw burnaby mountain`s students, there were so many mates yelled, “ REINE!!…isn`t that REINE?…”
Exciting…
The concert was rly wonderful. It`s so suitable to perform in a church.
I felt so holy…
We burnaby north performed. We were so awesome!! Suddenly, I felt we were so unitive.
Well, I had recorded and taken a lot of fotos as well.



today we went to school @ 9:45. all the classes had the same 1 hour.
Ya ba ri the guys didn’t compensate a new earphone for me.
After, went shopping wif yuko!!!
At 1st we went to Brentwood mall. Just walked and chatted. Then we went to metro town, --the second biggest shopping mall in Canada.
Actually I had liked a couple of stuff and clothes, but… they were too expansive.
Fuck!!! So many good-looking clothes, but I had no $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$……
Crying.
Then drank sth and ate sth, walked and chatted.
I bought Thai food for dinner. Delicious!! But…$5.35!!!
Than we took the purikura. That’s Japanese, I didn’t know the English. Means貼紙相。
Well that was my 1st time to took foto and do some cute poses but if I didn’t do that I would look stupid.
$8!! But it’s rly good-looking. Luckily yuko was here, bcuz the machine was made in jp and all the things were in Japanese..
anyways, I felt so happy today.
Don’t kno y, suddenly I thought of rei.
A little bit similar feeling.

-end-

I don’t know what else to say.
Actually when I read your journal, I was thinking up of a lot of things. I wanted to say many things at that time, but now I am writing my feeling, I rly don’t know what 2 say.
so I am afraid to phone you now. in daily life I always have a lot to tell u, so I always thinking about the pc. But when I tried to take up the phone, I felt empty.
矯情..
but my thinking is very similar to yours. So you can just change the name and the location in you newest journal, all the things left are what I want to say.
You said I become happy now. maybe you are right. So if you were worried about me you can stop now.
But you, from your journals, I can always feel that you are very gray.
Not dark as grade 8, but gray.
I know all the things about mates or foes, cannot take over your mind. But you are really worried about your mark and future, or something missing, am I correct?
I am just wondering why you admire me. You always have a very high mark, in people’s mind you are a good student, you’ll have a bright future, if you are going a right way.
But what’s your right way?
I guess a reasonable person like you, must have your own plan. Life is too short to live with danger. Choosing a right way, is really the most difficult question for us right now.
The topic became serious…change a subject.
Who is the D君? It seems that he is so fucking~just ignore him, and this kind of people, who always make you sad.
Well it`s my experience: always keep your mind pure, I know tat`s hard 4 us, but sometime we can cheat ourselves that the world is pure.
Believe or not, I guess just bcuz of that, I rly think the world became pure, …or maybe just bcuz the canadian people are more pure.
After reading your journal, I rly want to fly back to China impulsively. The feeling was so strange. I just want to唱K with you.
I can understand you. But is it only I can understand you? No one knows再見.露絲瑪莉， your手機繩,which you一見鍾情，but they都皺著眉頭說甘恐怖咖個嘴好似流血感. even Jay`s songs以父之名，no one likes it.
So satirical.
I think up a lyric, “I’m coming for you / You’re not alone / No matter what they told you you’re not alone / I’ll be right beside you forevermore / I long to be like you, sis …”
好矯情……
but Suddenly I find the lyric of “like you” may be a little bit suitable to now.
well, just relax for a while.

Stay low
Soft, dark, and dreamless
Far beneath my nightmares and loneliness
I hate me
For breathing without you
I don’t want to feel anymore for you
Grieving for you
I’m not grieving for you
Nothing real love can’t undo
And though I may have lost my way
All paths lead straight to you
I long to be like you
Lie cold in the ground like you
Halo
Blinding wall between us
Melt away and leave us alone again
Humming, haunted somewhere out there
I believe our love can see us through in death
I long to be like you
Lie cold in the ground like you
There’s room inside for two
and I’m not grieving for you
I’m coming for you
You’re not alone
No matter what they told you you’re not alone
I’ll be right beside you forevermore
I long to be like you, sis
Lie cold in the ground like you did
There’s room inside for two
and I’m not grieving for you
And as we lay in silent bliss
I know you remember me
I long to be like you
Lie cold in the ground like you
There’s room inside for two
and I’m not grieving for you
I’m coming for you

I am not sure I will back to China after half a year. But, I rly hope so.
Anyways, “I’m coming for you.”
Try your best to achieve your goal, to enter your right university, I hope I will see a happy REI.
I am expecting.


REINE.
11.17.2007.