我知道跟上一篇反差很大

但是心情來了就是沒辦法阻止

我真得覺得很辛苦

很累

我知道如果每天在那裏喊累

那我就一輩子 couldnt make it!

但是 i cant stop thinking how difficult it will be...

It just freaked me out! I mean REALLY!

FREAKED ME OUT!

 I just heard that my friends who are going to the same college with me are all going to join in the program called "honor program"

she told me she is going to participate in it!!! and she said something made me feel like I really should do something for my future

the whole program is going to be helpful when we are going to apply a college after we graduate from community college

one of the student in that program is accepted to the UW university of washington 華大!!

OMG that college is the one on the list of the top 100 college in US

and UW is the top 42 which means that one is totally awesome college

many people's dream!

I know I should do something...but I think I need more time to think abt that..

being a adult is hard , get to make ur own future is hard , make urself to do what u dont really wanna do is much harder than u expected.

I was wondering that i could be a kid forever..and now...since everything is coming too fast than I expected, I guess my dream isnt going to make it! and ever going to reach it!

Now guess what? I m going to make myself a decision, how excited is that!

which is what I dont wanna do...

I knew I was wasting time in US...I mean I didnt do a lot preparetion for the TOEFL test

and now ...im regretting

I knew it.....But i didnt mean to do that...

just havent ready to take all the responsibility for myself

u know what....the all paragraph is just ...complainingess...

I DONT like myself...childish and non-prepared....................

u can just stand out of it and watch me..and make fun of me or something....