The dog-bell-food classical conditnoning story. The dog is conditioned to salivate when the bell rings, because the presence bell tone indicates some food will be served.

and, how about me, what am i conditioned to? any particular smell, any particular scene, anything particular temperature, any particular place,or any particualr situation?

or all. or all?

if anything, what's the paired sensation? or sensations? is it/are they griever, helplessness, or just me pitying myself a bit too much.

am i sad? if anybody would ask me now, the answer would be no.

i am lost, rather.

lost where? errr.. only if i had known better, but obviously not.

maybe i'll still have a mixture of feelings when i encounter any conditioned stimuli in the future, perhaps i'll still go through hard times when it does happen, but then, i know, i am much more able to cope with it in better terms.

perhaps, perhaps, perhaps.