it's only one more week and a bit before i head back to school, to that country.

few month ago, i though i'd be ok. few weeks ago i realized i was not ok. now, i am certainly not at my best of shape.

as the time gets closer and closer, my heart pounds harder and harder.

it's what we call the nervous reaction.

i'd dream i hadn't finished packing but it's already time to fly. i'd dream i was already there but my suitcase was completely empty. i'd dream i couldn't find everything i needed.

obviously i am not too looking forward to doing it.

but then, it is my decision. just me feeling helpless on my fears.

i don't know how exactly to overcome them, just have to deal with them.

tough, life, really sucks.