Today I feel a little bit tired. After I finish the acupuncture, I went to sleep in the afternoon. There was a phone woke me up, but I failed to pick it up. I felt stiff for my neck. Oh God… I know how important a healthy body is, could you please give me one more chance? I will carefully maintain my body….

I don’t know how to tell you about that guy “Sean”, the man whom Mark introduced to me. I think he is pretty nice, except a little bit plump. I have told him indirectly about this, and he is really care my thinking and continues to do exercise everyday. Now, he always tells me that he is missing me… I don’t know how to reply him. I think he pretty like me. But from my side, I just think he is a good guy after all. I need more time to stay together with him and then I can know what I will feel.

For the “Mark” issue, I stop to communicate with him for a week. At the beginning, he kept on calling and msn me. I didn’t reply him. Finally, he was a little angry about this, and asked me why. I can’t say "because that was too shark for me to see you, your wife and children in Bali(八里). That meeting let me firmly believe you guys are a FAMILY. Your closely interaction will burn in my mind. I’ll never forget what I have seen. Your relationship is too strong to break up. So I feel hurt…very much! "

So, I told him “I didn’t reply your message because I didn’t know how to talk to you at this moment. I need some time to think all of this.” Since that, he has disappeared, no call, no message… I know he will do this, because he was angry and selfish. He never thinks what terrible harms he has done on me. He always thinks about his feeling, he wants love and me…. I know.

And I definitely want my life from now on should be WONDERFUL. My love should be concentrated! If I and Mark continue to do this, it is very very bad for me and unfair for Sean.

So I’m thinking, should I continue to stop all communication with him or give him another chance…to be a friend?