There was a sentence on a notebook’s cover which I found it from one of my cabinets.

It says “If you can imagine it, you can manage it.”

When I saw the sentence, I was thinking about some compulsive disorders in my life these few years.

I think the word “manage” is different with the word “control”.

Whatever happens in your life, at the moment while you’re suffering from some perplexing miseries.

If you don’t try to think and find some way to deal with it, then all you can to is just to compel yourself to pretend that you’re okay.

And, that’s just sort of what I was doing in those past few years.

I don’t have or I wasn’t giving it a try to stop what people called routines; or just give myself a little break having some free time to figure out the method in order to create the fine balance inside my body; neither at the psychological part nor the physiological way.

Friedrich Wilhelm Nietzsche is my favorite philosopher; also I was influenced by his philosophy so very much.

He used to say that “life has its own essence as a tragedy, but people need to fight against  the pain while confronting the inevitability of the tragedy”.

What would you think if there’s one thing which can sounds frenzied or drives people crazy?

For me, it’s the thing we called “time”; because as time goes by, everything will change and the only thing won’t be changed was change.

I’m not afraid of working hard, getting hurt, living alone, or dying.

The only thing I afraid was to lose; losing things I like, losing the friendships I really care, losing people whom I was deeply and truly love.

Why?

I think it’s because all those things and people around me at some particular ways, they construct me and make me feel completed.

Everyone's like a sun and you can't find the shadow without the sunshine.

You can define yourself by the shadow's curves and trimming the shapes to make it better as you want.  

And that’s life; you can’t live just by yourself without having any connect with any being.

That’s why people breathing, crying, wondering, laughing, dreaming … and it’s not necessary to be completely perfect in every single way in the real life.

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