Guten Abend mein Claire-baby!!

I’m back from Berlin now and just finished my dinner (noodles again!).
You surprised me with your email today, I even forgot to take the address of my exam with me to Berlin....:). I found it anyway, but I it was quite hard - I think I was not very good...

I’m a bit confused about what you write, and I’m trying to understand. Yes, I could already feel in the last days, that you have something...

We are very far away baby, thats difficult for me, too. And I’m thinking about you all the time. Sometimes its hard for me to say what I feel (I’m not a girl), but think I’m a stone, I care. Yes, and I worry when you go out so late and I can’t sleep well when I know you are sick or have any problem. Do you remember, before I told you many times to go home and not to stay in the pubs so long. But later you staid until the morning. And I felt bad, because I worried about you all the time. Believe me, I know that feeling. But there is something else, maybe I feel controlled because I can feel that you don’t really trust me. Is that right? Do you always think, I will hurt you?

Do you know, I asked you to marry me not only because I love you. Also because with you I feel like with a good friend and partner, comfortable and safe, somebody who understands me, who likes the same things like me. I respect you and I trust you. And I don’t think when we marry, you are mine. Maybe that’s chinese way to see that. You are Claire, I’m yours and you are mine.
I can imagine, it’s not easy for you to go with me and leave your home for a long time. Maybe you are not sure, if you can trust me and if we will be good together forever. Why don’t you talk with me about that? Do you know, I’m scared, too and I don’t know, what will happen. But I will do my best and everything to make it work, to give you a second home here, to make you happy. I would be a very happy boy if you really want that, too. That’s the truth.

I don’t know what else to say, I feel empty now.
I hope to hear you soon!

I think I understand what you said.
I don’t want to hurt you, honey.

I LOVE YOU A LOT!!!!
eckart

p.s.: don’t give up! I’m not strong either.

前幾個星期和他冷戰很久,因為一些結婚的事他和我父母意見不同,我就像中間人一樣,常想著不想離開家人(等等..荷爾蒙失調吧)...稿的我差點想放棄....但他寫了這封信給我,讓我真的很感動.