白天的時候，感覺好像過了好一陣子；
一到了晚上，卻又好像是昨天才發生的事。

真的好想找個人好好地說一下，可是話到嘴邊，那一陣子的種種畫面，一下子全部佔滿腦子，完全沒法控制情緒，整個不知道該怎麼開頭。

怎麼說才好呢...就是有一種很強烈的失落感，強烈到整個人好像沒有靈魂了。

原本就是有一個人，在你下班時，你只要走進廚房，就可以看到他的身影，現在就是空的，鍋鏟瓢盆，靜靜地躺在原處；原本就是有一個人，在你想宣洩的時候，他就在那邊，邊坐著看電視，或挑菜，就可以坐在旁邊拿起盆裡的菜葉，一邊一起挑著，一邊他笑著聽你放肆地大罵，現在早上放在客廳的杯子，下班後依舊在那裏，電視是關著的；有時候就是在你疲憊脆弱的時候，他躺在床上睡午覺，你可以蜷著，依偎著，枕在他的身邊撒嬌，現在就是空的...，剩老爸爸在房間裡，坐在椅子上，沒有開燈，沒有電視聲，就蜷縮在椅子上。

儘管有多麼強烈的空虛、失落，這些一定都比不上老爸爸的傷痛；儘管有多麼想哭的衝動，還是要忍住。要很強壯，身心都是，就算好像有一點不行了，也是要逼著自己去be strong。

可是就是空空的。

最近睡前，都會想到，那天在病房要回家前，i kissed you on the forehead, and said that i love you. And you, surprisingly, said that you love me too, with smile. u used to be so shy to show your love. i just couldn't help and cried at that moment... I don't wanna lose u, but it's about time.

i think of you whilst i'm alone...

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When the rain is blowing in your face,
And the whole world is on your case,
I could offer you a warm embrace
To make you feel my love.

When the evening shadows and the stars appear,
And there is no one there to dry your tears,
And I could hold you for a million years
To make you feel my love.

I know you haven't made your mind up yet,
But I would never do you wrong.
I've known it from the moment that we met,
No doubt in my mind where you belong.

I'd go hungry; I'd go black and blue,
And I'd go crawling down the avenue.
No, there's nothing that I wouldn't do
To make you feel my love.

The storms are raging on the rolling sea
And on the highway of a grid.
The winds of change are blowing wild and free,
You ain't seen nothing like me yet.

I could make you happy, make your dreams come true.
Nothing that I wouldn't do.
Go to the ends of the earth for you,
To make you feel my love.

To make you feel my love...