2007-09-17 08:36:17CharLIE

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Welcome home
the door is open

How long have I not been here?
How long have I not felt this?

They noticed my confused look
Went on to add

”This is where you belong”
”This feeling, only this feeling, can be yours,
and none other you deserve”


What is the familiarity I am feeling?
So strange and yet so nostalgic.



They looked at me again, said

”You merely woke up from a dream, a dream I tell ye”
”You were never taught to hold on to your dream, nor will you ever be”



That sure is comforting.




That’s when I realized something was wrong with me.
On my chest there is a hole, so dark so deep I could see no end.

I think it led all the way to my heart, that black piece of junk.



And out pours blood, so thick so tender and so warm
Soon enough the room is filled with what smelled like iron.

They saw that pile of red stuff on the floor

”Oh you need a tourniquet”



”But I am not going to give it to you, you deserve every bit of this”

”And I want you to suffer”

Suffer....



I havn’t felt this alive, this human for a long time.


Let me stare, right in the face of pain.
This feeling belongs to me, all of it belongs to only me.

And then let me implode, right in front of you.

Did my blood get on your face?
Did you wipe it clean?



”Oh poor child, havn’t you heard? They never taught you how to love”

Never.....










”Cause I’d rather feel pain than nothing at all”

Pain - Three Days Grace (2006)