New start, new problems in my life.

I wonder if it's only happening to me.
Do you gals all have great boyfriends/husbands, who understands what you think, gives you what you need, and won't embarrass you in public??
Is it me feeling that my boyfriend is like my kid, that I am worrying that he will do something embarrassing me again...?

Angel said that I've been yelled a lot to him.
I almost wanted to kill myself when he said that I am not nice enough to him.
I've been trying so hard to be a good girlfriend, taking good care of him, worrying about his health, his playing, and everything.

Eventually, I only got this: "Don't yell at me like that."

Why does he have to embarrase me in some way always?
I don't understand.
Can he even understand that I feel embarrased?
Or he is just being selfish.

It's a dead end, isn't it?
I will never be able to get out of here.

I am so tired, being his girlfriend.
Or I should say, "nanny".

Talk to me, somebody.