so I was in my manager's car..in a convo he said I've changed....
I really have..
for a year I havent come on here. for a year i been in this company, went lost every day and be sad every night. yet im still there, till this moment, for more than a year now.

"when you decided to go to the end of the world for somebody, make sure they are still there when you are back"

so much emotion involved in this job now. so complex i cant make a clear decision. to go or not to go, is the question can not be solve.

it's true that a leo and virgo mixture has a contradictorily personality. i rather to not know anything. i rather to just be myself like a leo. but i have to admit the virgo is in my blood, no matter how much i hated her she is still here.

this job really, speed up my life so much. or is this just how it is? how it is to be a grown up, to be how i used to think i can ace any troubles effortlessly.

for days and nights im in constant conflict with myself and i. where have i been. nowhere but just where i started. expect for this piece of ground have changed itself drastically.

i was so naive i thought i can make myself look as happy as i always am. unfortunately, my manager said i've changed.

i thought others won't see it.