毕业后第一个生日
既然是那么的灰暗
没工作
最主要的是那个冲劲没有了
也不知道为什么没有了
哎。。
knowing everyone feels the same doesnt make me feel better
knowing more will happen in the future doesnt make me feel better
i guess time is a funny thing
i want to go climb a mountain
as always i can just think about it
thinking that i climbed up a mountain
breath in some fresh air
rejuvenated with some cold oxygen
needless of word... everything is clean and fresh

according to chinese time i landed this world 1.5 hours ago, 23 years backward in time
i havent done anything
in these 23 years
that could possibly wow myself
i should even be ashame...since just one friend..actually say happy bday to me on the day
i should be ashame of...not able to step out of university proud..with a job on hand
i dont know if i should be ashame..that i cant find in these 23 years of my life...at all
so much pressure that i found a white hair on my head today

i just realized that my bday is at the end of the summer
a time of cooling down
wonder what that brings