I’ve worked from strength to strength for so long. Yet I feel tired now. I’ve come so far behind to a place like now. And you are still not satisfyied. Are you too demanding? Or is it just because I’m not ambitious enough? Do we have a barrier that we cannot penetrate? Then why is that we can never communicate properly. I HATE America. I don’t wanna go and study. why do u have to make me go to fuckin seminar today! I did it just because I don’t want you to be upset. I’m not one bit interested in it. The kind of reception given up there was crap, and they were all universities, I’m not interested in university when I still haveen’t applied for my College. You say you are not giving me any pressure, you are not pushing me. Cut it out, Lies! You know everything. Ypu are the one that tries to help me most, yet is denying me all the time. If this continues, I might have to break up our mother-son relationship to get some peace. Do I not want to go home? Why do I want to spend more time outsaide, its because I don’t want to be scolded by you, fuckin annoying. I never get 1 moments peace at home....

SOS call from my heart...