You can’t imagine how bad it gets.

3 years ago, I made a most regretful decision for my parents, for the so-called future, for everything but my own. So I had to give up what I’d love to ‘cuz I don’t want to hurt them or go against with them. I am an exactly coward who lacks courage and confidence to stick to my way.

3 years passed by, I still not get anything. No particular skills. No ideal diploma .No my own ideas. No creativity. And no dreams. What I’ve learned is just keeping in line and never walk outside. Don’t tell me to return where I were. IT IS ENOUGH!

Everything seems to go wrong. They got the unexpected excellent results. Contrarily, we lost what we should have deserved. The policy is absolutely not fair for us. Anyway, it might be blame to the damn luck ‘cuz no one can do something for this.

My mom really blew up. So did I. She was trying to persuade me to select a major like business, accounting, economics… Oh, come on…You will over my dead body. Although I know it’s impossible for everyone to do what they always want to, it will get even worse no matter how hard I try, thousands of my maths papers proved it to be right.

“All right ,” you said, “concentrate on only one thing, and desert the useless ones like drawing , Japanese language learning, literature, music, or it just a waste of time and you’ll be no way’s out.”

“Useless?” What does it mean? Maybe you were born for money, fame, achievement. But I’m afraid I wasn’t. Those delight you a lot don’t meet my real needs actually.

Anyway, you win. I can do nothing but compromise.

To wish everything will be okay, although it won’t be always.

C’est la vie.