2008-10-24 00:15:08alex

胡思亂想....

今日全日都係都胡思亂想.....

亦都不停同自己講唔好諗咁多....

本身呢篇野係琴晚打既....

不過可能琴日晏就個精神用得太多既關係

琴晚好早訓左....一訓就大天光.....

其實呢兩日都不停係度諗緊佢....

琴日佢就係遲到....但當我知道我撲尼撲去...

而原來遲到既原因之後......

我係成個人呆我.....係度諗返最當初我諗既問題

其實係咪真係復雜呢佢.....唉.....佢d frd咁樣....

但其實最擔心既....始終係會唔會下次係佢出事呢

原來真係緊張一個人....擔心一個人係咁辛苦架....

唉....或者係咪真係好乖好乖既女仔先飱我呢?

但而家見到佢又病又好慘咁....

我唔想佢擔心得太多.....

所以都係"good"一聲吞晒佢~

希望佢快d好返....

不過本來越尼越有信心既我

特然間好似無晒咁~

唔知呀....特然覺得好唔明呢個人....

好唔明佢係一個點既人....覺得同佢距離好遠

其實係咪我根本未了解呢個人呢?

但呢一件事我真係唔敢同我任何一個frd 講

或者....我唔想佢係其他人心目中既印象變差掛.....

琴日nikita話我原來係一個咁好既男仔......話我咁緊張鍾意既人....

但我覺得有d諷刺....我咁緊張既結果係點?

唉...其實我唔係想要管d乜.....

我都唔係要人地報到去左邊既人

但我鍾意一個人就會擔心佢.....

而且我又係多野諗既人.....仲要成日係向壞個方向諗....

咁樣真係好辛苦呀.....

開頭我有諗過因為呢件事....去唔理佢...去放棄......

但我做唔到~

頭先渣車差唔多諗到撞車添.......好睬淨係剷左上"薄"

有時真係覺得自己衰好命....

但上天可唔可以再比多次我呀?

我唔想再有感情係我付出左....但係又係得個吉呀~

Just let me forget everything, and let me wait for her with confidence!

Thanks god!