if you can assure that my mum will be safe, if you just tell me, i'll swore to you my sincerity, and my believing.

am i not sincere enough??when the moment i start to think of that, i begin to back up. maybe I'll regret after that, I don't know yet, but what's more important, my believing or my mum??

There's no doubt, it's my mum.
So...

I decide to put away my doubts, I tell myself to swear...

but still, there's more doubts that come...

I really wish for mum's recovery.

and yet I can do nothing.

What a coward!!!